Picture me scratching my head. What have I been doing this summer? Hmmm. Um.... Nothing?
I do know that the question I dread is not pointed, nor does it carry expectations with it. People are just making conversation. The problem is me. I'll explain with an email I wrote this afternoon. This is what I said,
I can relate to your "returning to equilibrium." That is how I've felt this summer. On the one hand, I struggle with feeling guilty for squandering all this precious, precious time I've been given this summer. Every day I have a niggling feeling at the back of my mind that I should be DOING something - accomplishing something. But, my more protective inner-self rears up and yells, "Back off! She needs a break!"
I know we all feel this way at times. Overwhelmed. Exhausted. Frustrated. Not yourself. That's how I felt at the end of the school year. Tired. So very tired. I love teaching. I really do. But, to do it well takes a lot of time, a lot of passion, a huge commitment not only of energy, but of heart. By June, I was just plain beat.
I'm better now. I feel refreshed. Energized. Excited. Myself.
crafting with Sloane
visiting our home away from home
doing lots of movie watching
playing with my new toy
treasuring a special treat from Jeffrey
Oh what a summer!
My plan this week is to remember that taking care of myself is not wasting time. I am trying to remember that every day does not have to end with a completed to do list in order to have been a productive day. I am really trying to remember that every day doesn't need to be productive; it just needs to be lived.
So now I have my answer to the dreaded question. And, I am going to share it with you. Play along, won't you?
"Hi, Relyn. How are you? What have you been up to this summer?"
"Hi, __________. It's good to see you. What have I been doing this summer? Well, I've been taking care of myself. I've been reading, writing, blogging, and just being. I've been enjoying my family and my friends. And, I plan to travel a little before it's over. I've had a terrific summer. What about you? Tell me about your summer."
What about you? How are you taking care of yourself this summer?