Monday, December 12, 2011

change is never easy...

young love

It became official Thursday night. The elementary school where I work is being turned into a magnet school. I staff I work with are all being sent to schools throughout the district.

My heart hurts.

Yes, this is a good decision for the school district. Yes, it will be a good thing for so many people. Yes, of course, I am grateful to still have a job. Of course. But.

But, I am heartbroken.

This place I work; this place I love; this beautiful season in my life... all of it is ending. And I am sad. Just sad.

People who don't work here think our sadness is just the stress of change. It isn't. Those of us who work here, know that we are a part of something special. That it just doesn't happen like this very often. We've made a family out of a disparate group of people. We've made a home out of a fifty year old building. We've made a life of service, together. We've found a family.

And my heart is broken to lose it.

28 comments:

Lubna said...

I feel your pain, Relyn. Yet, each of your colleagues will be able to spread their joy all around the district. Kids who would have otherwise not got to know them will now find a special teacher. Take care.

Charissa Steyn said...

Change is never easy...I can relate to your feelings. I am always embracing adventure, but deep down I am so scared!! Thankfully, we are more adaptable than we realize. God is so faithful!I am sure you will get to see new sides of him in the coming days!

Tracy said...

Oh, but I am so sorry your facing this heartache, Relyn. A life of service in change can be sore to deal with, especially when one gives so much to many. I hope very that this door closing, of sorts, will mean a new door opening for you & your school family. :o) Thinking of you...((HUGS))

tinajo said...

I´m so sorry, hope it will turn out for the better in the end.

d smith kaich jones said...

oh, relyn. i am so sorry. so many changes wrapped up in one - new buildings, new people, new everythings. losing the old you loved. i know you will turn the change into a new love, but still, a true sadness and heartbreak.

love you much.

Hausfrau said...

Oh, I'm so sorry! I totally understand that this is a big deal.

Jennifer Richardson said...

oh friend, I send you hugs
and love
and kisses of light.
-Jennifer

Kimer said...

My prayers are with you during this time of change!

Debby said...

So sorry. That has to be so hard. Schools are changing more and more because of the economy.
Not sure that's why your school is changing. It's hard to be part of a "family" and have everyone in it scattered every where. I will be saying prayers for you. ((((((HUGS))))

Amy said...

Oh, Relyn, I'm so sorry . . . for you all! I will send up a special prayer for each of you, that the remaining time you have together, will be especially sweet . . . and that you're next adventure will be blessed!

Marilyn said...

I am so sorry. You are right, change is a difficult thing, especially when you have something in your hands that is so precious. Blessings on you and the others this will effect.

maddie said...

..just think of that butterfly, all wrapped up, warm and happy, in his cocoon...then the painful change that had to happen before all could see his glory! Be prepared to show all your glory!!

Joanna said...

When we're so happy with how things are, change really sucks. You have an unsettling road ahead and I hope the happy memories of your school family give you strength.

xx

beth said...

i think i know how you feel....similar to every time we've moved and the people we love and know are no longer where they belong....like right next door.
it hurts. i know how it hurts.

Ms. K @ Write On Thyme said...

Oh dear Relyn~ So very sorry to hear and so wishing change didn't always hurt so much! Even when we can see the silver linings, there is such a tear in the soul! Am thinking of you and sending heartfelt hugs and prayers! Prayers for all those moving, for those feeling such pain and loss and that it ends up being the best and brightest thing for all involved!
xoxo~ Kirsten

Mary Jo at TrustYourStyle said...

I'm so sorry Relyn to hear this, I know how much you've loved this place and you've written about it so many times...I only hope that the change coming will bring you even more happiness, as yet unknown, but still coming.

xo Mary Jo

keishua said...

that is hard. my work family is important to me,too. You spend so much time with these people and they become a part of your life.Hopefully, you will be able to keep in touch with each other.

Jeanne said...

Big hugs and much love my dear friend.
Blessings in your new transition.
Life is never easy.

Love you
Jeanne

Motherkitty said...

I'm sorry your heart is hurting, and that your "family" is being scattered in the winds of change. I hope you will all be able to stay in touch and keep the bonds between you close and strong. Blessings to you.

Gayle at Planet M Files said...

Oh, Relyn, I'm so sorry.

Cinner said...

Relyn, wishing you strength in this time of change. hugs to you and prayers that things will be well.

Connie said...

Prayers and Hugs, change is often heartwrenching. I wish you the very best and know you will weather this challenge with aplomb!

christinelaennec said...

I'm so sorry for your heartache, Relyn. I think it's very likely that the goodness you all built together will continue to radiate and be felt as you work in different places and in different ways. But what a loss. I hope you can keep sight of all that you accomplished. No doubt the children will be feeling grief as well.

Dorit Hansen said...

I feel like sending you condolences. The end of a workplace - and working community - is sad.

susanna said...

Oh Relyn, I'm sorry, too. It is hard when you have to say goodbye to coworkers who have become dear friends. Will you be teaching elsewhere, too?

HKatz said...

Relyn, I'm sorry to hear this. It's hard when a community you're a part of breaks up. Together you all make something special and irreplaceable.

I hope in time all the positives you mention will ease the hurt and that the changes will lead to another wonderful community of people. It's not a replacement and it won't be the same. But maybe it will also be good in a different way.

I wish you strength and hope and faith that the stressful situation will surprise you in good ways in the future and that your old colleagues will keep in touch and stay as close as they can in the circumstances.

Georgianna said...

Dear Relyn, I'm so sorry you have received such distressing news, and especially near the holidays. I send my hopes and wishes that it all works out for the best and that your heart is happy and filled with joy again. love, – g

Jaime said...

a *hug* for you.
I am sad for you. I know how hard this kind of loss can be.
But, you just never know what's coming around the next turn in the road.
xo

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